Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Before and After

 
Eventually, I am going to realize how embarrassing this picture is and I will stop sharing it with everyone but until then I will because you will never understand who I am without knowing what ive been through. You will never know why it takes me 10 minutes to pick what kind of bread i want to buy because im deciding if itll be healthier to get multi-grain or whole wheat. Youll never understand why I am sick alot. Youll never understand why I get SO excited when I cant wear a pair of pants that I bought a week ago because they are now too big for me.



In 9 months, I have lost 140lbs. I went from wearing a size 24 to now a 14 (but that wont last long because im still dropping weight like crazy...) I went from hating my life to dreaming of adventures with my best friend. Im not gonna lie and pretend like everything is ok now. Because, honestly, its not. I worry about my health. I have a hard time getting enough to drink and eat everyday. Im worried that I may have gall stones and will have to have my gallbladder removed. I still think of myself as the overweight girl. Im still awkward and shy sometimes. I still pick out my flaws and over analyze everything about myself.

The only difference now is I have hope. I have hope that tomorrow will be better. I have hope that I can still become the person I want to be. I have hope that I will reach my goal weight. I have hope because I have come so far. Sometimes, I still need to be reminded of my journey. I have kept a pair of my "fat" jeans and every time I start to think mean thoughts about myself I put them on.

Seriously, i could fit another person in them with me. Its CRAZY! I should really take a pic in them and post it on here. I dont think I am a completely different person but I am better than i was. I am healthier and stronger. I trust myself more and I love myself more.

I workout now because I LOVE it and it makes me happy. I dont look at other girls working out and think mean thoughts or say something rude under my breath about how they should go eat a twinkie. I am proud to see other women taking pride in themselves and working out. They are healthy. They are strong.

-Em

Friday, August 19, 2011

To Write Love On Her Arms


    

IM BAAAAAAACCCCCKKKK!!!!!! Sorry i havent blogged in awhile. I moved from Rexburg, ID to Salt Lake City, UT and just now got wireless internet. Anyway, the meaning for this post is to share with you a blog post from an organization that is near and dear to my heart, To Write Love On Her Arms.  If you have never heard of it, please take a minute and check it out here. I just know you will fall in love with these amazing people and will have to pull yourselves away from their site. They're amazing!

Anyway, I came across a blog post that reminded me of my fight. My journey. It is about a guy named Ben and his fight with obesity. Please, Please, Please check it out and check out his blog!! You can read the blog post from TWLOHA here.

Well, thats all for today! Going for a swim with my sister. Gonna enjoy the day!

 -Em